Having a ‘milestone’ birthday was not what had been preoccupying my mind. It was deciding how to celebrate that nagged at me. For at least one year I had been listening to people ask, What’s your celebration going to be for the big four-oh? Are you traveling? Where will you go? Are you having a party? You must have a party! Have a girls’ weekend! Plan a group trip out of town! Yes, let’s do that! It’s one thing to embrace an idea and it is another to commit to an event. There are schedules, spouses, children, preferences, group dynamics, and budgets to consider. In my mind, nobody but the celebrant is ever truly responsible for organizing her party and as enthusiastic as people were to get on board with anything I could have wanted: Camping Extravaganza, Beach Retreat, Coastal Getaway, European Sojourn, Asian Adventure, Epic Picnic, Dive Bar Disco you name it – I do not have the mental nor emotional bandwidth to execute an important plan like that the way …